May 11th, 2013
Dear Future Boyfriend,
Love scares the shit out of me. It legitimately terrifies me. Not because you can get attached to someone, though God only knows how terribly I deal with that when that happens. No, it’s more that with love, you get used to it. No matter how hard you fight…
I think I just hit a new rock bottom….and I’m not sure I want to fight this fight anymore. I’m not sure of anything thing anymore..I feel empty….I’ve felt empty for a while now….but tonight it’s different…it’s a new empty…a darker empty…an empty to which if you fall into it you would simply just keep falling…a bottomless empty..I feel it in every inch of me..
I know it’s wrong but I don’t want to just be with one guy. I want to be able to switch guys, but still not date them at once. I just want one guy for one period and another guy when I’m sick of the first.
